terry

a lot has happened since last chance to blog.   IT has been a big jerk because he is a jerk.  Katie sent him an email and I think it knocked some sense into him.  Dad passed out and fell at home.  He called me and said he had a knot on his head so Jessie and I ran to check on him.  Poor thing!  he had a big knot and blood was everywhere!  took him to the ER and he was put in the hospital for 3 days.  That was on over two weeks ago and he still has a bump and black eye. Little brother has had to have 2 surgeries on his eyes and still has not gotten his sight back in one eye.   

Got the trailer down here, cleaned up and sold.  Was doing good with the money till the house AC started going out.  Called the repair guy and even though it was not “broken” the cleaning it needed to work cost almost $600!!!!  Now I am broke, on food stamps and laid off!  Siiiggghhhhh!!!!

Things go on as they have been, struggle to keep bills paid, IT keeps sending less and less money.  Miss my Mom, and my Granny, Dad keeps having problems.  Favorite customer has a girlfriend and it is not me…

The kids are as broke as me, but the did give me a good Mothers Day.  Jessie washed and detailed my car and Katie brought me a silly little book and plush kitty that looks like our latest addition.  Then A!#@$@ hubby sent me an email to tell me he (50 yr old) has gotten his 32 yr old MARRIED live in girlfriend (the one he had in the next town) that he moved up to Montgomery to live with PREGNANT!!!!!!!

Here is the letter!!!!

This is going to be hard to be told but I must say this…

Tim/Dad

At least I have filled out the paper work and given it over to the attorney.  Thank you Dad for paying for the fees.

Even though I have not had a chance to excersise any at all my weight is still holding steady at 165.  Wish I could get out to do something fun.

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Scum dog ex hubby to be sent an email last week wanting to know why the kids don’t talk to him. Last night he texted me demanding an answer to the email. I thought about it and wrote a reply. Today one of his older brothers called to say he was in town and wanted to see me and the kids. I lied and told him him to come on and visit. (Now why this is so ironic!) 10 years ago this brother dumped his 3rd wife (of ten years) for a sweet young thing half his age from Lithuania. When they married I just knew in my heart that she was going to get what she wanted out of him and dump him. She has done it! and they have two kids under ten. He will be 65 when the first one graduates from high school. I also knew that hubby jerk would do just like big brother and do the same to me. KARMA!!!!!!!

Dad scared me again a week ago. He took the wrong meds again.  He has been doing much better since then.  The girls and I have been trying to come down with the flu for a couple of weeks.  I go to sleep and wake up freezing, go get a down blanket and in a couple of hours wake up burning up and soaked in sweat!  Migraines have been making me crazy have been living on OTC migraine pills and Pepsi Max.  I hope it is only from the stress of trying to keep bills paid.  Thank you God for my Dad,  he has kept us from going under from no money.  Hopefully will get to send off income tax soon and get a good bit back.  enough to catch up bills and pay for the divorce!

Have been good with food but have not had much chance to go walking or anything. Maybe soon.

…only 9 people came. Me, Nancy, 3 volunteers, 4 visitors and favorite customer!  He called to see he wanted to come see the show and me! He even gave me a hug!!!!  He has called me at least once a day for about a week now.  Spent a couple of hours with him Friday working on teaching him computer stuff, then he came to the show Saturday and called Sunday and since I was close to his house picking Katie up from work we went by, stayed for about an hour.  The Wednesday before the show I was upset by symptoms Dad was having and called favorite customer (from here on out to be known as PTW) because he had told me about symptoms his Mom had been having that seemed to be the same.  He called me back a couple of times to check on me and Dad!  

I took Dad to the doctor that day, he had two appointments and I took him to the wrong one at the wrong time, made myself soooo mad!  Was driving along fussing at myself and some of the things the bereavement specialist told me came back to me.  “You can write something down and forget it no matter how many times you look at it, and it is okay”.  So I backed off myself and Dad some especially when I realized that Mom’s birthday is coming up.  Made me understand better.

Little brother just had a biopsy on a spot from his lung, his fiance went with him and said the doctor said it did not look like cancer but he will get the results Friday.  Say a prayer for him please, he is too young for this.

Doing better on eating, got to go for a walk and got the rowing machine out, cleaned, and adjusted and it gives you a workout!

the last year has not been kind to me or I to it.  I was down to 160 (even hit 158 once) back in 2007.  With all the stuff that went on last year and all the eating out that was done (would get Mom anything she wanted from any where in hopes she would be able to eat it) I even managed to stay between 165 and 168 up until a month or two ago.  Was a bad girl over the holidays and went up to 174!  Started really watching what I ate and got to walk once or twice and have gone down 3 pounds this week!  Now I am on my way back to at least to where I was.  Want to get back on this horse and finish the race.

…has anyone out there ever tried Slimquick or Relacore?  Used Relacore in 2006 and it was a good jump start.  Have been seeing the commercials for Slimquick and was wondering about using one of them as a jumpstart.  Any input guys?

…it looks like it was a TIA or mini stroke with no lasting results.  THANK YOU LORD!  So glad he is okay!  Just don’t think I can take too much more.  He has to reschedule the eye surgery and a urologist appointment and go to two other doctors in the next couple of weeks.  Have started back on the weight loss again, kinda took a back seat the last year, at least with all that happened my weight has stayed the same, things are not as firm as they were but clothes still fit.  Trying hard to be good with what I eat again but having trouble getting into the swing of things.  Want to start walking again but stuff keeps happening when I want to go, have gotten a bunch of second hand exercise equipment but the shop is so messed up I cannot set any of it up yet.  Hope everyone out there is well. will post again later.

Went to pick Dad up for his eye surgery and we did not make it there.  Had to call the EMT’s because it looks like he had a stroke.  He has apparantly recovered fromthat but is being tested for heart trouble which could have caused the stroke like symptoms or the stroke or the stroke could be causing the heart problems.  Will let you all know.

It has been a long year, so very tired of everything.  Mom died July 12th, 2008, Jessie (youngest child) and I moved in with Mom and Dad in May.  She was on hospice from April till she died.  (Hospice is one of, if not the most worthwhile charity that you could ever donate too.)  The last week of her life she was in a coma and did not respond to us at all.  The night before she died was awful, we could not get her comfortable. She moaned all night.  Hospice came out at midnight to try to stablize her, we called them several more times that night.  We tried music, more morphine and other pain killers.  I sent Dad to my bed about 5 am and told him I would sleep with Mom so he could get some sleep.  Some time after that I fell asleep.  At 9am I woke up and looked over at Mom and knew she was gone, a few minutes later Dad came in.  We called Mrs. Abbott the next door neighbor who is a retired nurse and hospice.  Hospice came and pronounced the time of death and preparied Mom for the funeral home.  It has been a long hard time since then.  Dad has been a handfull!  One of my friends at work over heard a conversation between me and Dad one day and said, “How many kids do you have?!”  I thought about it for a second, and said “I guess 3, a 17 year old, a 19 year old and a 74 year old!”

Soon to be ex hubby dear is still as much of a jerk as always.  He hit 50 last month.  Even though the last time we “talked” he was told to NOT come down any more until he  paid off his bills.  (He maxxed out his credit cards and could not pay for things he was supposed to like hotel rooms! But it was our fault! We took too much of his money!)) He shaved off his moustache! Said the blonde (grey actually!) streak made it look like he always had a runny nose.  His hair was darker too!  He was telling Jessie that he went to see Twilight, what would a 50 year old man want to see that for?!  Now he is telling me that he wants to move the trailer back down here to sell because he has a couple of people who want to be his roommate!  Then he is going to move to Birmingham!  How can he do this when he cannot pay his bills!  I cannot wait to be free of him but am also scared silly!  So scared that the kids and I will be left desitute and everything I have tried to scrape back together of my life and finances will be gone, again.  Anybody got any advice?

Favorite customer is still favorite customer.  He just continues to amaze me on a regular basis.  He is so kind, and smart and funny and everything nice one can think of.  My girls like him and the girls at work think he is really special too.  We participated in Spring Festival of the Arts.  My brother Jr came down from Seattle to visit Mom and  Dad and take care of them while I was in Spring Festival.  Neither one of us sold anything much, spend several hundred each and only sold $40 each.  Favorite customer went on his yearly hunting/picture taking expedition, he has been to Maine several times and there maybe new things brewing at work.  Keeping my fingers crossed.

Well it has been good blogging, Ihave missed it more than I ever realised.  Will come back and finish tomorrow.  Have to get up early and take Dad to have the second cataract surgery in the morning.